Divorced!

After waiting for what it seems like an eternity, today I am single again!  For whatever reason, today, in court (we were there AGAIN for different reasons), EX decided he would be able to face the judge and finalize the process. 22 months after filing for divorce, it has actually happened.   I have lost … More Divorced!

Life Changes

Sometimes it’s really hard for me to look back and see how my life was “before” and now what it’s like at the present. The one example I’ll give is what I’m missing most lately.  My hobbies. Especially gardening. Summer, not too long ago, meant a huge garden, harvesting, up keeping the garden, preserving what … More Life Changes

Two Years

It’s been two years since LOML and I reconnected.  TWO years.  It is hard for me to fathom that time has flown by and I have been supported by this wonderful, caring and supporting man. My heart is happy and he makes me laugh. However, on the flip side, it means that my divorce continues … More Two Years

Suck it Up

Is this truly possible to do through life? I know at my kids’ school, they are often asked if they can “life with it” – “it” being a decision, a compromise, a situation.  In fact, it is one of my son’s favorite phrases.  He tells me he can “live with it” or tells his sister … More Suck it Up

Never ending guilt

So the guilt continues.  As do the tears.  From.  Me. My kids lives were changed so dramatically.  How do I get over the fact that the kids don’t have their own rooms anymore? That they don’t have a yard to play in?  That they have to switch houses twice a week?  And the days Ducky … More Never ending guilt