It’s been two years since LOML and I reconnected. TWO years. It is hard for me to fathom that time has flown by and I have been supported by this wonderful, caring and supporting man. My heart is happy and he makes me laugh.
However, on the flip side, it means that my divorce continues to drag on. TWO years. $50K spent down the drain on attorney fees and divorce “specialist” BS people. And STBX is STILL STBX. And he is more and more terrible towards me; the harassment has picked up again. The bullying, the name calling and the yelling at me. So many times in the last months I have just given up; given in, just wanting this to all be over.
And it still is NOT over.
I have lost all faith in the family court system, in fairness and “what’s best for the kids.” It is all about who has the loudest tantrum, who is the best manipulator, who can be the bigger asshole and who is the best liar. You can guess who I’m talking about. Yep, STBX.
I need this to be over. I’ve lost so much for my own sanity. And my heart aches for my kids, the ones who are caught in his manipulation and lies.