Two Years

It’s been two years since LOML and I reconnected.  TWO years.  It is hard for me to fathom that time has flown by and I have been supported by this wonderful, caring and supporting man. My heart is happy and he makes me laugh.

However, on the flip side, it means that my divorce continues to drag on.  TWO years.  $50K spent down the drain on attorney fees and divorce “specialist” BS people.  And STBX is STILL STBX.  And he is more and more terrible towards me; the harassment has picked up again.  The bullying, the name calling and the yelling at me.  So many times in the last months I have just given up;  given in, just wanting this to all be over.

And it still is NOT over.

I have lost all faith in the family court system, in fairness and “what’s best for the kids.”  It is all about who has the loudest tantrum, who is the best manipulator, who can be the bigger asshole and who is the best liar.  You can guess who I’m talking about. Yep, STBX.

I need this to be over.  I’ve lost so much for my own sanity.  And my heart aches for my kids, the ones who are caught in his manipulation and lies.

Two years.




2 thoughts on “Two Years

  1. After a year of the new plan, I gained full legal and full physical custody. All his power was taken away but that didn’t stop him from trying. He kept filing new motions for silly reasons, would call the cops to my house at 2am saying I was using drugs with children around, visitations became an awful experience for my daughter, having to drag her onto the plane to see him was tearing my heart up. We finally went back into court, fought for supervised visits and we were successful. He eventually stopped seeing, calling her all together. She’s 16 yrs old now, and within the last 4 years she’s seen him only 3xs, his choice but when they talk or she visits, she comes back with the sad reality that he’s still stuck in that time, only now she has voice and she makes him stop and listen.

    It’s a long tough road, but get the support you need for yourself, I promise that makes a huge difference.


  2. Thank you so much for your comment. I am probably going to seek a “second opinion” attorney as I feel like I keep losing and STBX is still scheming about something. I did actually file to seek minor counsel today – I can’t continue see my kids have no voice. It’s a constant battle over everything.


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